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Iri's storehouse
Mirror of Kibisis
Reopening
Persimmon cooking
Rider, bicycle, and the jealous Sakura
The King's clothes are a swimsuit (waterfront king: prologue)
Saber lately
Afternoon light
The battle of today's menu
Sakura-san lately
Fuji-nee's persimmon feast
Towards the "splash"
That past is already
Caster's shopping (hobby edition)
Quo Vadis
Lancer
Lancer's Heaven I
Lancer's Heaven II
Lancer's Heaven III
Wabi-sabi-tsumami
Horn (definitely)
Horn (no echo)
Matou residents
After coming back
Return of the wise man
The big three female Servants' super-battle
Sea of memories
Bridge of eternity - right
Warrior's knowledge
Murder at the Twin Mansion
Spearman at work (flower shop edition)
Her holiday villa
For your forgetful self
Murder at the empty mansion
Caster's delivery
Illya strikes back!
Rider and the sandwich
The light on the way home
Great problem at the archery club
How about a training camp?
Crest fever
Sakura and deluxe lunchbox
Sisters' lunch
Educational guidance
The student council chairman is still going strong.
Let's go for lunch!
Fuji-nee's teacher form
Cat-tiger family rampage
Rin and Mitsuzuri on campus
On the verge of a dream
Plushie
Potato sorrow
Marron pie temptation
Rider, reading, and the jealous Sakura
Light-hearted promise
A guest from 5 years back
The trap of high-class ingredients
Sugar candy teatime
This is not Heaven.
Rider's errand, no return
Cleaning alone
Cleaning with everyone
Caster's shopping (good wife edition)
Mimic Tohsaka Lvl 1
Mimic Tohsaka Lvl 2
Mimic Tohsaka Lvl 3
Familiar kid
Angel and a diamond
Visitor
Suspicious pair
Makidera and Rin's pendant
Loitering on the way, main road
Towards the cultural festival
Caster's cooking practice
Dowsing housing
100 views of corpses
Respecting the countless servants
Iron and the second button
Gorgon's cellar
Selected for the King
Pool tickets and a threatening letter
What kind of wedding?
Sakura's memories
Autumn, sky, and a golden taste
Because I groom it twice a week
Mitsuzuri visits
Rin and high tech
Three girls one day
Killing and a fancy bear
Persistent cooking Caster
Successor
Bridge on an ordinary night - left
Two detectives
Mitsuzuri's revival
Himuro Kane's inquiry
Smuggling, fishing boat, round-the-world trip
Rin's magic lesson
Invisible servant
Sakura, Mitsuzuri, and the archery club
Mitsuzuri Minori
Snake princess in the evening sun
Lunch with the track-and-field club
Day of the festival
Praying Fuji-nee
Rider investigates
Adventures of Himuro Kane
A samurai and a wild flower
Dragon trance military history (??)
Pool and the Mystic Eyes seal
Penguin-shaped shaved ice machine
Level up?
Tohsaka exploration party
The secret to finger pressure massage is devotion.
Dreaming cooking Caster
Gossip between the two
Anachro-analog Rin
Border
Adventures around the maid
Sakura and Caster, united edition
Shin-chan and the sea
Blue Panther vs. Black Panther
Big trouble! The ancient legend of the resurrected supreme king inscribed in stone
Big pursuit! Two teachers, an elf, and an apprentice
Flip-flop 2
Flip-flop 3
School maid
On the way home
Crosswords and shogi problems
Training camp, approval
Justice and the kitten
That night: ghost stories
Curse collector
National treasure
A cat, a priest, and a stubborn teacher
Rin at the temple
monster
Ath nGabla
Final night
Good night
Hero of the bath
Sisters' crisis
The future is now
Airmail
Emiya massage
Quartet overture
Stray tiger
Dead Bridge (I)
Dead Bridge (II)
The things that suit Rider
In London
Peace and quiet (I)
Peace and quiet (II)
Peace and quiet (III)
Peace and quiet (1)
Peace and quiet (2)
Peace and quiet (3)
Ritual window
Kagetsu Tohya
Awakening (fake)
Awakening (not yet)
Silver thread
Decisive battle
Temple guardian
End of the four nights
Cruel teacher
One last drink
Execution appreciated
Those that give and take
The shore where he stayed
Choice sake - proof of the wild
Streets at night (patrol)
Streets at night (battle)
Haunted mansion
Tohsaka's advice
Haunted night
Good night - Illya
Good night - winter
No trespassing
Ghost Gossip
Ghost Gossip Glamorous
Hotel Einzbern
Memory
Twilight castle
Not yet
Reopening
A moment in the morning
Rin comes back
Wish.
Sisters' summer (apple)
Sisters' summer (lemon)
Medical medicine
A siblings' game
Waterfront king
Heaven's dress
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unlimited blade works
heaven's feel
Caren I
Caren II
Caren III
Caren IV
Caren V
Caren (?)
Spider ladder
Spiral ladder
Reverse Moon
Holy Grail
Heaven's Feel Backnight 1 (church)
Heaven's Feel Backnight 2 (rooftop)
Heaven's Feel Backnight 3 (Dialogue Möbiuslink)
Heaven's Feel Backnight 3 (out on the town)
Heaven's Feel Backnight 3 (love)
Heaven's Feel Backnight 4 (Endless)
Heaven's Feel Backnight 5 (Void)
Heaven's Feel Backnight 6 (arm)
Heaven's Feel Backnight 6 (church)
Heaven's Feel Backnight 7 (Cradle Hollow)
Chaldea
Accel/Zero Order
Unlimited raise/dead
Let's Tell a Tale of World Salvation
16 - Heaven's Feel Backnight 3 (name)
To kill the monsters and to find the Masters. Bazett wanders the city under the pretense of both.
What a roundabout way of doing things.
This isn’t to win the war.
Bazett is looking for something else.
What makes it roundabout is the fact that Bazett herself doesn’t realize it.
She’s anxious because she can’t totally forget that. Makes me want to have a certain idiot, who forgot about his own power, follow her example.
BAZETT: ……………
She’s acting a little strange. Maybe she had some bad experience at a harbor. After looking at the sea for some time,
BAZETT: Avenger. We have fought many Masters. The Servants accounted for are Saber, Archer, Caster, Rider, Assassin, and you. The only enemies that we have yet to encounter directly are the Master and Servant of the Einzberns.
AVENGER: Yeah, sounds about right. Of course, I’m not really happy that so far there’s been nothing but black marks.
BAZETT: ...Yes. We have yet to achieve a single clear victory. No matter how exceptional of a familiar the Servant we face may be, this should not happen.
Bazett grits her teeth.
Not from the pain of defeat, but because she’s trying to rouse herself.
BAZETT: I know that I am being apprehensive, but I would still like to hear your opinion. ...Do you… Do you think we can win? It is a fact that we are inferior in strength, but if we continue like this, one of these days we…
“One of these days we should win the war, right?” her eyes ask.
We’re losing because we don’t have enough experience.
If Bazett uses me a little for fighting, and if I tell her what my real Noble Phantasm is, there is no Servant we can’t handle.
...Well, we’ll pick up a victory pattern of sorts anyway, whether we want one or not, so I really don’t need to tell her now, but…
AVENGER: One of these days we’ll stop losing. But more importantly, Master, you’re using “we” instead of “I” now for this talk about winning.
I just had to point that out because I found it amusing.
BAZETT: Ah-- n-no, did I? I, I didn’t mean that consciously, but…
AVENGER: Now that’s interesting. So, you trust me unconsciously, is that it? What, is this love? Can I interpret that as love growing towards me as a friend?
BAZETT: D-Don’t be ridiculous. So, what proof do you have that we will not lose? Tell me honestly, without hiding anything.
AVENGER: I don’t have proof yet, but there will be results eventually. You’ve got a trump card that can take out Servants, right? Just like that, I’ve got a trump card that’ll stop a Servant for a little while. Since we’ve got both of these, the rest is up to how we use them. We just need to work on the timing for that from now on.
BAZETT: Trump card…? Do you have multiple Noble Phantasms?
AVENGER: Nope, I only have one. As for resurrection, well… That’s not me, that’s an ability that got added on later when I became Angra Mainyu. My Noble Phantasm is an imitation of Avesta, you see. Well, I’ll tell you more when we get back.
Avesta is a support-type Noble Phantasm that records events by its own volition. On the level of an automatic typewriter, basically. Absolutely useless in a fight.
The advantage is that it is able to put into words emotions that are indescribable and ones that you wouldn’t even be aware of.
A Noble Phantasm that’s incapable of harming anyone befitted the name of Avesta -- the book that inscribes all things correctly.
My Noble Phantasm, yeah, it’s just a little bit of an imitation of that, but--
AVENGER: Anyway, if you want to stop losing, you’re going to have to get serious too. In combat, you’re the best of the Masters. You might even be able to defeat a Servant with your bare hands, so what’s with the low self-esteem?
BAZETT: ...That is… true… I have no intention of losing even if I am dealing with Servants, except all I can do is fight. I believe that I am, er, the worst of the Masters in other skills.
AVENGER: So what? There’s nothing wrong with that. Hrrm, wonder why you’re feeling guilty about being tough. Pretty damn ugly, that kind of attitude.
BAZETT: Wha… I, I don’t feel any particular guilt, not at all. I have no feelings nor regret towards any of those I have killed.
AVENGER: Oooh, that’s reassuring, iron woman. Keep fighting with that attitude. ‘Course, if you go overboard, I’m going to look pretty dumb. Lady, as you are right now, you’re 10 times stronger than me, you know.
BAZETT: Y-Yes, I am well aware of that. After all, on the very first day, I was made painfully aware of just how useless you are in battle.
AVENGER: Right, right. Oh yeah, but when it comes down to a human-killing competition, I’m number one. Natural inclinations, you see. ...Wait, maybe not number one. I’m either second or third.
BAZETT: ? There’s a better murderer than you?
AVENGER: Yep, that’s right. There’s this dog and spider. These guys, you see… I just can’t keep up with them no matter what I do. I can match up in quality, but speed? Speed’s on a whole different level.
Never got into a competition with them or even met them, but I understand it as an undeniable fact.
It’s just like how a spider knows how to spin a web from the moment of birth.
I learned that’s how the rules were from the moment I was called Angra Mainyu.
BAZETT: Hm. So as a Heroic Spirit you are bound by the condition of “not being able to win in speed,” I see. Avenger. You told me that you are called Angra Mainyu, but that should not be your true name. What was the name that you had when you were alive?
AVENGER: I told you, I don’t know. As I said, I don’t have one. If Angra Mainyu is too hard for you to pronounce, you can call me just Angra.
BAZETT: That cannot be true. You should be able to remember your own name. ...I take that back. I, of all people, should not be the one to be saying this. However, a name is the beginning of everything. A name given at the moment of birth, if you think about it, is the expression of one’s life. If you cannot remember, you should not be able to whistle with that kind of ease.
AVENGER: Damn you’re dense. Get this, my name is gone. It was taken from me when I was treated as a hero. The town I’m from produced some first-rate curses, if nothing else. It’s been stripped from me by curses, so I don’t know what birth name I was called by. Even if you order me to remember, that record just doesn’t exist anywhere in the world anymore.
A name, if you think about it, is your own life, huh?
She’s got a bit of a silver tongue on her. I can’t just sit back and lose to her, so I guess I’ll tell her a few things.
This is a common, old story.
In it, there is a man whose life is saved by his friend. To save the man, that friend died.
The man took the name of the friend who died to save him, and from then on, saved the lives of many.
This was to give what remained in the world after, his deeds, his life, everything, to his friend who had wagered his life for him.
There’s nothing heartwarming about a story like that, not at all.
To put it simply, that man died long ago when he swore to lie about his own name and use his friend’s.
BAZETT: Then, your birth name is no longer…
AVENGER: Doesn’t exist, nope. But I like the name I have now, since I’ve been called this longer than my birth name. I’ve got some attachement to it and it’s got a nice homely feel.
BAZETT: I see. You have lose your birth name, but your next name was one that you were fondly called as a hero. Even if it is a title, it is a name that gained acclaim from people. Of course, you would like it. ...Forgive me. I must apologize to you. I came to a hasty conclusion and ended up showing you unwelcome pity.
AVENGER: Mm-- well, you don’t have to worry about that, and it’s nothing to apologize about.
It’s okay to come to a hasty conclusion, but pity is bad. If you’re going to pity me, gimme some love instead. Please love me!
summary
-Bazett asks if Avenger thinks they can really win the Grail War
-He tells her they're bound to win sooner or later thanks to their abilities matching well
-She feels unhappy about being good at nothing but fighting, but is well aware that she's stronger than Avenger
-She asks about the name he had while alive
-He explains that his former name has been erased, but he's fine with being Angra Mainyu